Friday, June 19, 2009

Now I need advice

I'm just putting this out there in the ether--

I'm in the beginning stages of a quarter life crisis, and I'm trying to head it off at the pass.

I'll be 25 in 3 months and I still dont know what I want to do with my life. Now, I'm very good friends with some very smart people who also dont know what they want to do with their lives but we are all the kind of people that just take joy in being alive and experiencing the small things together.

Then I look around, and realize that as I walk to work everyday there are people younger than me walking by me on the street and they just look more successful, they seem more purposed. I have college friends who have been on Broadway, have worked for the President, have done things I've dreamt of doing and I'm not jealous per se I just dont know why I cant get myself together.

I was always encouraged to do something that made me happy with my life, and I've come to see that as bad advice. You should do something you're good at, or something that makes a lot of money, something that gives you freedom somehow, but happiness can be found in a really good tomato, or a lovely piece of string--you dont need it at work.

That said, I want to do something that makes peoples lives better. I dont care what it is really. Does anyone know what I'd be good at? Do I? and why do I have the sneaking sense that none of what I want will come from that pile of art supplies in my apartment. ugh.

1 comment:

Lea Maria said...


Not for nothing, but I read that letter you sent the superintendent at your old hs, and how you spoke about our duty to our students really moved me. I mean, have you ever considered teaching? You're so smart, have a wonderful sense of enthusiasm, and clearly care about what goes on at this level of academia--you'd probably make a great teacher.

As one who's considered this path of work more and more as my MA comes to an end, you'd definitely be someone I'd like to share a staff room with. If that means anything to you.